bad day.... of burps, passing gas, chest pain and cancer...

Yesterday it was the darn hiccups... Todays it's the bloody burps. I've been burping since i woke up this morning up till now!!!!!.... and it smells terrible.... and i keep passing gas... urrggghhhh!!! It's fortunate of the ppl in the office that i am on MC today.

Chest pain - still there on and off
Stomach discomfort - still having it since morning
Appetite - real bad!!!!
Burping - i think I'm on avarage 25 burps per hour... urrgghhhh!!!!
Passing gas - still having them......

The worse news came to me just prior to noon. Got an sms from my brother...

Bro : It's cancer stage T3

It's my father. My worse fear has come. It never really occured to me how it will hit us when you hear ppl telling you their spouses/parents getting it.... until it really happens to YOU. I was blank for at least half an hour. Didn't know what to think, didn't know how to respond, didn't know what to do next....

Have yet to tell Steven... probably will tell him tmr when i pick him up from Puduraya.

There's so many things on my mind now - i'm lost.

hiccup... hiccup....

I've been hiccuping one whole day..... I haven't the faintest idea why is this happening - too much wind in my tummy? pls pls pls pls.... pls go away you darn hiccups!!!

Went to see a Dr today for a 2nd opinion on my chest pain... the same thing was mentioned as my previous Dr - probably just some muscular pain in the sternum.... this time around, she's sending me to do extra tests next week - X-ray, ECG, etc.... my first time doing ECG!!!

Am i worrying too much? am i having too much stress?.... sigh, at times i want to think that it is not work related.... another staff tendered today... 2 down... 1 more to go....

The darn hiccups' still won't go away!!!!!! urrrgghhhhh!!!!!!

how i have abandoned you my dear blog...

I totally forgetten bout this blog of mine till somebody gave me his blog addy to view. Not that i wrote anything that was significant - only one miserable post prior to this.... Guess I am not much of a blogger am I?

Lotsa things happened since the last post waaaayyyy back in Feb. The important ones are :

#1 - I finally gotten over Jo. He never did reply any of my sms-es, e-mails, etc. What a jerk! (Actually I kinda forgotten bout him until I went through this blog again)
#2 - I re-bounded.
#3 - If not because #1, I would never meet the best thing that ever happened to me so far this year - I met Steven (Mr S to some...)

Hope Steven be back soon.... 3 more days to go.... :(

this is how i look like...